"Wake up , you had a match this morning. Did you win?" says a voice in my head. I think to myself, come one that's not important; I had already set my tactics yesterday night, and match has already been played. Nothing I can do about it now. I go back to sleep. After few mins I hear the voice again "may be you didn't win, but at least get up and check your DV."
Yeah, since I live in the states, I am 6 hours behind CET. Most of my matches are at 5 AM.
So I wake up, grab my phone, and go to attend the call of nature. I lightnup a cigarette, and start to check my result. I have 9 teams, so this is pretty much a routine morning for me. But just when i finish checking result(s), I hear the voice again, "hey, while you are in the site, why don't you check all the teams to see if anybody has anything interesting to say?" I am like, okay that wouldn't hurt and I sit there letting my cigarette burn to ash whilst checking every freaking comment and discussion in all of the leagues I am in and leave comments wherever I feel I like I can give my opinion which, to my surprise, is a lot.
Suddenly, I realize, I am late for work, so I light up another cigarette, finish my business and go to office. Then while driving I hear the voice say, "do you think anybody has replied to the comments you have left this morning? What if somebody didn't like your response and confronted you in front of everyone? Everybody else must be thinking Aryan has nothing better to say so he shut up."
I say to myself, "that's crazy, nobody cares that much, and nobody expects me to be online 24 hours and reply to every other comment made towards me." So I keep driving. But what's the first thing I do when I reach office? Check all the leagues where I left comments. "This is ridiculous", I think to myself, but still keep scrolling and jumping between league pages.
Then it suddenly hit me, I am at office and my manager sits in the next aisle, time to get some work done. So I log in to my work PC thinking luckily the site is blocked here otherwise they would have fired me.
But the voices just wont leave me alone: "what about the match you have in the afternoon? Did you set your tactics? Is the 150K WB you put enough? What if the opponent plays LRS? You know you will get screwed for tightening the wings. And hey may be somebody scribbled finally? Maybe somebody bought an illegal player in your youth league. What about the post in the main forum you left?"
My brain goes into overdrive and I just shut it all out, well at least I try to. But I still end up logging into the site at least 6 times from work.
I come home at 6 PM, open my laptop and straight login back to the site to see what have I missed. I somehow try to resist that urge, and obviously i fail.
I keep thinking, "are the croats twins Baf and Zlatni85 arguing again if the earth is round or flat? Is JimNo10 pissed again because he lost to an inferior team and blames a random game result. TractorBOYZ back at home or still on thenroad? What is JohnwordCena upto?"
Somehow I get to dinner, and as soon as its 9:00 PM I log back in again to see if I have a youth waiting in my inbox to get promoted; set tactics for tomorrow's game and then I go to bed.
You would think the voices will shut up now, but no, "you could have set better tactics for tomorrow. Will the 18/5 become 19/7? If he does, will you sell him or keep him? What if a manager resigns from your league?...blah blah blah.."
GOD.... MAKE.... IT.... STOP. WHERE ARE MY SLEEPING PILLS?
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